A Letter to My Little Self

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Being a Child, All I ever wanted is to grow up.
Now as I grew up, I'm telling you girl
I miss being you, the child that I was.
The innocence that I had,
The sand forts that I made,
The fairy tales that I heard,
"Dear God, Please make them true", I wished.

All dressed up, lunch box packed,
Rocking the handle of water bottle to and fro,
While walking all the way to the school 
With those little tot friends around.
Losing a pencil or coming back home
with a chewed up eraser and facing mom
was one of those direful worries back then.

Now, Every time when I feel life gets tough,
I wish to run back to you. I know you are capable
Of turning the world into a better place with that trusting smile of yours.
I have always fallen for it.
I have always questioned how did this little girl
kept smiling not knowing the hardships that she is going to face.
You didn't know. You never cared to know what is yet to come.
And that made you absolutely stay in the present and enjoy your heart out.

This 24 year old here talking to you
with her hair tied up in a messy bun,
Wearing clothes that doesn't match,
Struggling to keep things sorted,
Questioning herself of her capabilities,
Lazing around like a panda all day,
And skipping meals to watch korean dramas ;)

Dear little self, let me tell you that she
Is also trying her way out to set things straight,
Working hard to be a better version of herself,
Starting to find out what makes her happy,
Ticking off those little little things in her bucket list,
Breaking off the barriers that come in her way.
She is not perfect nor she is trying to be one.
All that she is trying to do is to unapologetically accept herself
and keep creating the life that she dreams of. 

And one day, I promise, She will make you proud. ❤


Comments

Anonymous said…
It was like a slow emotional roller coaster ride from my childhood till now.

Love your writings.

Your works really have a character in them.

All the best!
18 June 2021 at 20:55
Unknown said…
This little cutie touched my childhood days days..njoyed those memories..love you baby 💕
19 June 2021 at 00:33
Madhusudhan, RDO , Dharmavaram said…
Excellent one and i can say onething that this is fantastic and
these writings will take us to the past and make us feel
the happiness of a pure heart ... Loved it a lot ..

all the best amma 👍
19 June 2021 at 06:44
Jayasree said…
Wow 🦋
1 January 2023 at 23:37
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